What makes you nervous?

In this post I’m grappling with the complexities of modern life and the impact of technology on human connection. I am contemplating the divisiveness of the physical and the digital world, both of which are of great concern.

While technology offers many benefits, it also raises existential questions about our humanity and the quality of our interactions. I am nervous about feeling detached, I recognize the importance of human connection amidst the digital noise. Embracing my heartbeat as a reminder of my humanity is a powerful signal that allows me to find balance in a rapidly changing world.

Lets discuss this in details!

It’s not easy to admit you’re afraid of your own heartbeat. There are so many scary things about being alive, but feeling your own heartbeat shouldn’t be one of them. I admit, feeling or hearing your own heartbeat can be intense. But seeing the world filled with human avatars is even more scary and intense.

The more we engage with social media, the more likely we can take our humanity for granted. We can become too anesthetized and live like zombies. Not caring about the next move or the person next to us. We have become so detached from our humanity that we have started bringing our social media avatars into our physical living space. This scares the hell out of me.

For instance, on social media, we scroll through posts and pages like a thief in the night. We leave no footprint that we were even there! For many of us, we don’t engage in social media and that disengagement spills into our real life. We have become passive observers.

This makes me nervous because most of us have become avatars in real life. We walk by people and never speak, we observe people like we are scrolling through social media. We rarely say hi or stop to talk to one another. This avatar engagement makes me nervous.

So when I hear my heartbeat, it makes me nervous because it’s a reminder that I am alive. I enjoy that creepy scrolling life. It’s weird I know, but I don’t always know how to engage a stranger on social media or in real life. I love humanity but humans are creepy. My heartbeat reminds me of my own creepy humanity. I feel detached and creepy around other people and that’s scary behaviour. I’ll admit, I’ve been this way most of my life. But social media has made it ten times worse.

Hearing my own heartbeat, I am reminded that I am embodied and not a detached avatar. It is a stark contrast to the digital avatars I encounter daily on social media. It’s the perception that people behind social media posts and pages have no pulse, no heartbeat, no physicality. With the arrival of AI, do we even know who or what we are engaging with on social media?

I’ve watched content creators meet people in real life and instead of engaging in a conversation, they exchange Instagram pages. We have become so detached from our humanity and for what? Likes, comments and subscribers? While they are important, they aren’t important enough to replace our humanity or our human to human contact!

This dichotomy between the real and the virtual, the tangible and the intangible, is what unsettles me. It is a stark reminder of the duality of our existence – a physical being in a digital world. It creates an unease that is hard to shake off, and my heartbeat becomes the instrument that keeps ticking incessantly, reminding me of my discomfort.

I long for the days when human interaction was not filtered through a screen, when our avatars were our physical selves and our interactions were not limited to connections on Instagram or likes and comments. I yearn for a world where humanity is celebrated and not hidden behind digital masks and influencer’s forts.

But that world seems to be slipping further and further away and this makes me increasingly nervous. The relentless beat of my heart serves as a reminder of how far we have strayed. It drums out a rhythm of fear and uncertainty, a rhythm that echoes in my ears long after I have logged off from social media.

And so, my own heartbeat betrays me. It exposes my fear, my uncertainty, my longing for a world that once was. It is a constant reminder of the paradox of my existence – a human being in an increasingly digital world.

And that, above all, makes me nervous. It’s a fear that I must learn to live with, a fear that I must learn to challenge. Because no matter how scary it may be, my heartbeat is a reminder that I am alive and human, and that is something I wouldn’t trade for all the likes, comments and subscribers in the world.

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