I’m going through an existential crisis because of a breakup. It’s not the ordinary breakup that people go through. It’s a personal breakup with the self I had no control over creating. I’m over this self and have taken the liberty of telling myself this morning, hey “it’s over, I’m done”. Now I’m sad because I’ll miss this old selfish person who had so many attachments that she couldn’t even live freely.

I used to be bound by insecurities, fears, and the need for validation from others. I constantly sought external sources of happiness, never realizing that true fulfillment comes from within. But now, as I embark on this journey of self-discovery, I am shedding layers of my old self.

It’s a bittersweet feeling, bidding farewell to the person I used to be. I mourn the loss of the familiar, even if it was suffocating and limiting. This old version of me had built a fortress of attachments, trapping me in a cycle of dependency and unhappiness. But now, as I break free from those chains, I can’t help but feel a pang of sadness.

I’ll miss the comfort of my old selfish ways, the familiarity of seeking validation from others, and the temporary highs that came with it. It’s like saying goodbye to an old friend who was always there, even if they weren’t the best influence. But deep down, I know this breakup is necessary for my growth and happiness.

As I let go of my attachments, I am creating space for self-love, self-acceptance, and self-discovery. I am learning to live freely without the weight of expectations and the constant need for external validation. It’s a daunting journey, but one that I am determined to embrace.

So, as I navigate through this existential crisis, I remind myself that this breakup with my old self is a step towards becoming the person I truly want to be. It’s an opportunity to rewrite my story, to redefine my values, and to cultivate a deeper connection with my authentic self.

Yes, I may feel sadness and nostalgia for the person I used to be, but I am also filled with hope and excitement for the person I am becoming. I am ready to let go of the old attachments and embrace the freedom of self-discovery. This breakup may be painful, but it is also liberating.