In honor of Suicide Awareness/Prevention Month, I want to shed light on a touching reality: for countless veterans, thoughts of suicide are a daily struggle. Some wounds are visible, but most are not.

Serving our country leaves an indelible mark. Some memories weigh heavily on our hearts, surpassing the weight of any uniform. While this month is not solely dedicated to veterans, it is crucial to acknowledge that many individuals, regardless of their military service, face silent battles.

During the 80s and 90s, as an African-American woman, pursuing a successful career was an uphill climb. After the dissolution of my 13-year marriage, I felt alone and the overwhelming responsibility of raising our two children. I had nothing, no money, no career, and no way to support them. In search of stability and a brighter future, I heeded Uncle Sam’s call and enlisted in the United States Army.

Although I carried emotional scars when I joined, I hoped the military would provide an opportunity to confront my fears. While the possibility of combat loomed, I yearned to avoid it. But I understood that it was an inherent part of my commitment. My primary aspiration was to secure a better future for my children and myself.

I underwent training at Ft. Leonard Wood, Missouri, and later found myself stationed at Fort Eustis in Newport News, Virginia. There, as an administrative assistant, I worked closely with the company commander and occasionally undertook special tasks in the battalion office. I served with immense pride in the 6th Transportation Battalion (Truck). Unfortunately, I sustained a significant injury during basic training. Nonetheless, my determination propelled me forward, and I served until the completion of my contract in 2000. I had the privilege of serving during Operation Desert Shield/Storm and Operation Restore Hope in Somalia.

While my unit was deployed to these countries, I remained at the Virginia battalion, supporting the soldiers left behind. It was disheartening not to accompany my unit, but I understood that my duty was to serve wherever I was placed, without question.

I entered the military with dreams in my heart, only to realize that the journey after service would be arduous. Much like my time in uniform, many veterans undergo significant transformations upon leaving the military. These changes can be profound, and unfortunately, the deepest scars they carry are often invisible. This invisibility makes it difficult for civilians to comprehend and empathize with their experiences truly.

Life has taught me valuable lessons. We may not always receive what we hope for, but sometimes, life surprises us more than we ever anticipated. I want this message to serve as a guiding light for my fellow veterans.

Many of us bear our burdens silently, but remember, you are not alone. Your service and sacrifices exemplify immense bravery and courage. A community is here for you, standing in solidarity and ready to offer support.