I had grown accustomed to having my writing companion by my side, always ready to assist me in my creative endeavors. Whether it was brainstorming ideas, providing grammar suggestions, or simply offering moral support, this trusty companion had become an integral part of my writing process.

When I lost internet power I lost my writing companion. I have become dependent on Grammarly because I’m great at ideas and putting my thoughts into the written word. But when it comes to writing rules, I suck the most. English is my first and only language, but again I suck at the rules.

I’ve become accustomed to having Grammarly keep my writings in line with the academic expectations of someone with an undergraduate and a graduate degree, not to mention a life-earned Ph.D. in religious philosophy.

I’ve gotten so accustomed to having help at my fingertips I panic and refuse to write any more posts until I have my writing companion to make me look like I know how to follow the rules. I’ve learned so much about my dependency on technology, and it messed with my psyche deeply.

I’m feeling a mix of frustration and reliance on tools like Grammarly. It’s normal to lean on such tools, especially if they help convey your ideas. However, it’s also understandable to want to be more self-reliant and to sharpen your skills.

I’ve realized that my dependency on Grammarly is a double-edged sword. On one hand, it’s a lifesaver, helping me to maintain a professional image and ensuring that my work is polished and error-free. On the other hand, it’s become a crutch, making me feel incapable and insecure about my writing abilities without it.

I’ve started to question whether my reliance on this tool is hindering my growth as a writer. Am I becoming too complacent, too comfortable in letting a machine correct my mistakes? Is this dependency preventing me from truly mastering the English language and its complex rules?

I’ve also noticed that my dependency on Grammarly has affected my confidence. I’ve begun to doubt my abilities, questioning whether I can ever write a piece without the help of this tool. This doubt has led to much self-doubt and anxiety, which is not conducive to creativity or productivity.

Despite these concerns, I also recognize Grammarly’s value to my work. It’s not just about correcting grammar and spelling mistakes; it’s about ensuring my ideas are communicated effectively and clearly. It’s about ensuring my work is the best it can be.

Moving forward, I need to find a balance. I need to continue using Grammarly as a tool to enhance my writing, but I also need to work on improving my skills and confidence. I need to remember that it’s okay to make mistakes and that it’s through these mistakes that I can learn and grow as a writer.

Ultimately, it’s not about becoming less dependent on technology but about using it to support my growth and development. It’s about learning to use these tools as aids, not crutches. It’s about becoming a better writer, with or without Grammarly.